As I’ve continued to write and look at more of my poetry over the past years, I’ve come to notice a story of my development that came to be unearthed. Although each writing on its own have their own dark atmosphere, connecting them together; analyzing them and their themes had me notice something special. Within these 10 stories a journey of realization, acceptance, pain, betrayal, growth, and survival are seen through an artistic lens that was only clear to me months after their writing.
If at all interested please comment your own interpretations of what is seen below
1.
seventeen years worth of cries
i heard your voice is sore from the lies
text me when you get home
love me even when i drone
am i the place where you wanna go to
on my mind
but i need to let go too
is it right or am i stuck with my old cues
turn me away when i feel my heart to sway
decay me
decay me
we talk circles
scared to know the whole truth
2.
black licorice
sweet like candy
i don’t need you here
do you even understand me
turn the other side
i love my false brides
3.
Betrayal beckons me
I feast on pain
A restless hum
festers in the slums
I am unrenewed
a slave to my demons
See spirits in my room
cannot get enough
talking the devil
he says I haven’t done enough
when I close my I reprise of my dark demise
why was peace never an option
I always did my best
why didnt I pass the test
betrayal beckons me
I reap what I sow
death is my asphalt
pain is my freedom
you cannot deceive me I already bleed me
you can say you got it but I lost my mind first
throwing up shrooms in my room man my mind hurts
you cannot find her
betray your loved ones
betray your family
isolate yourself and be one with the tombstone
Death is bashful
decorate my skin
freedmen plead me
death is bashful
freedmen plead me
4.
Yesterdays past a sorrow wrath
I forget the mourning of such grass
Dark desolate decrepit awaits me
A crime of passion evades me
The cracks of wind echo and shimmer
Ill never again see the winter
My memory fades no past shall come
Forgotten twine burrowed in hiver
My body aches and my scorn
Will you ever again come for dinner
My heart races my world shakes
My mind declines ravenous spines
My blood skips and drips out from me
Skin withered and leather
Forget me
Forget me
5.
Disaster finds my tomb
cadavers reprise their wombs
I cough soon to die
my dark demise sings high
a restless hum
bellows from my bullet of life
my time has come
unslaved from chains of strife
unsolved my time has come
Relentless eyes
betrayal runs
deceivers grow
lay low awake
jealous asleep
conceived in sin
I come to grin
take off you clothes
need not you know
sweat saps so slow
death came so close
my chests so empty
filled with envy
do you detest me
betrayal sing so sweet
my path stuck full of deceit
Death is bashful
decorate my skin
Death is bashful
decorate my skin
6.
stuck sat beside a hallow tree
my needs bleed me
an ocean
of wheat blows past
the visual
violet mist drowns
the golden canopy
lifeless
my eyes lost grip
a drift
7.
I see spirits in my room
cadavers and unsung tombs
I close my eyes
I reprise my dark demise
shadows feast on me
the trees look with glee
repent for unwell time spent
the road is hollow
legion follows me
8.
i had a dream
i drowned in the swamp
accepted my fate
let the water fill me up
but i didn’t die
i laid on the roots of a tree
climbed my way up
until i could breathe
back up on the surface
i awoke
9.
discarded passages
conceited anagrams
a sickly groan roams our home
but have you seen
the shrill
who means well
it’s rumored
she dwells and barters
in forgotten hells
discarded homes
combs and phones
you name it
she finds a way
10.
Forgotten pleasures and pains riddle my brain
Foresaken in ash sweet nothings dribble from the frame
fame and fortune are nothing but a consequence
Your old life stares on
As you move forward
Leaving it to rot alone
The one thing you promised to never do
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